AM ADDICTED TO YOU.

Thanks Niko! It's the first thing i did this morning.

Here are my TOP 5 Addictions:

1. Chat - I was 18 when i started to chat and explore the chatroom. I've been to different regions of the world, met a lot of good and rude chatters and found few friends. I remember the longest hour i stayed in an internet cafe was from 12 am to 12mn.
2. Watch Movies Online - I don't have enough time to go to Cinema or even watch movies at home so i watch movies online whenever i'm not busy at work.
3. Fruit & Vege's - Something i can't live for a day.
4. Call Home - I call my mom twice a week as much as possible.
5. Go Out - I've always love going out but since Pangit came i can't do it as much as i wanted to... Hmmm

Now i want to tag Donna.

FIRST DAY OF LENT

"Remember, O man, that you are dust, and unto dust you shall return"

I went to Sainty Mary's Church yesterday to attend the Ash Wednesday Mass at 6pm. The Priest, Fr. Zaki, told us in his homily that Ash Wednesday is the day of repentance and it marks the beginning of Lent. That when ashes are emposed on our foreheads we accept to repent for all our sins through prayer, fasting and alms giving. He said that fasting doesn't only mean that you have to skip one meal a day..... stop gossiping, stop womanizing.....can also be a form of fasting. The 3 pillars of Lent can be done in any form and he said that when you pray, Ask God to give you the grace of forgiveness and healing, also pray for all those who have caused you so much pain.

Okay, thousands of people attended the mass....would that be the same number of person expressing sorrow for sins and faults and willing to change their life? Well, if there's one prayer i had last night, that was "God give me the grace of forgiveness and healing" How many Lenten Season had passed but still my feelings towards my inlaws was the same. I know i prayed a lot to give me the serenity to accept who they are and forgive them for whatever they have done on me.....but nothing had happened. As the days had passed (that was 3 years almost) the more hatred and anger i felt on them. I don't know, i think need to pray more and do sacrifices.

Promise it's really hard to be good when you're attacked with evil forces. But now i hope and pray that i would be able to let go...and forget the thought of seeing them suffer more than i did.

HAVE YOU EVER

Continuation of Niko's tags for me.


1. Have you ever been on tv?

Maybe yes! To name:...during the Opening of Little Milo Olympics 1995 at the Rizal Stadium. 1500 students of The Sisters of Mary School performed an opening Field Demo…and I was one of them…then another one maybe was during the Manila Bible Quiz Bee 1996 (not so sure of the year)…selected students of our school was chosen to watch and support our delegates….and it was covered by Channel 5

2. Have you ever sang in public?

Does it include the Christmas Caroling from house to house during Christmas Season? If yes…then yes…hehehe

3. Have you ever dyed your hair blond?

Yes… and it was the last and worst color I had…I was entering in college when I had it and I felt so embarrassed when everyone turned their heads on me coz I was the only girl having that color in the campus… I hated it! From then on I never tried to dye my hair even w/ my favorite color – burgundy.

4. Have you ever eaten frogs' legs?

Yes I did and I love it! It was one of the exotic food I had other than snake and iguana.

5. Have you ever received a present that you really hated?

Yes! I had this suitor way back my single life, who had given me a gift during my 20th birthday. He’s present was a chocolate bar, a bouquet of flower and a birthday cake. Nothing was wrong with his present…in fact I love those. But since I don’t like him and I hated him so much so as his gifts. After he left, I gave the chocolate and cake to my roommates and thrown the flowers in the trash can.

6. Have you ever walked into a lamp post?

Yes, many times….in the province.

7. Have you ever cooked a meal by yourself for more than 15 people?

No! So far I had only prepared food for 5 people…me, pangit and 3 friends.

8. Have you ever fallen or stumbled in front of others?

Yes, and that was in front of Pangit. That happened in Grand Central Shopping Mall as we are headed to the Cinema. I wonder how it happened really coz we’re holding hands and suddenly I stumbled. Lucky there was only few people who saw me and it was only Pangit who laugh at me.

9. Have you ever done volunteer work?

Yes, during college days: campus clean up…sea shore clean up…tree planting…outreach program (child feeding)…

Now I have to pass this tag to Donna & Jeck.

NEW BAG

I bought a new bag yesterday at Shoezies Store. It was not my plan to buy actually but as i was waiting for my friend, i decided to go to the store and check their new items...and i found this one.

I'm not a brand conscious which make me easily buy things anywhere. May it be cheap or expensive as long as i like it...definitely i will buy. I bought 5 pairs of shoes on the same store at a cheaper price. Their products are mainly from Thailand, Japan & China.

Now i'm planning to buy shoes or blouses with the same color of the stripes. First time to buy such kind of bag with diffirent color, usually i had pure black, white & pink bag

NEW PROFILE PHOTO

I change my profile photo just today. It's a crazy look a like photo which was taken when we we're having our photo safari adventure during my photography class year 2006. It was taken somewhere in Dibba, Fujairah, U.A.E. at the Carpet Market.

Among the photos i have...i like it most! Anyone of you can say any comment on this photo? I would love to say that it describes me as i am, in a sense that even if i am in trouble i remain hopefull for everything to be alright.

I do look like a crazy lady in the street but have you notice that i'm still beautiful even if i look that way...hahahaha.

HAND BOOK FOR 2009

Received this from Engr. Milo Torres, he was my instructor in Flash Animation when i was still a student of FCC Dubai.

And I wanna share this to everyone....

HANDBOOK for 2009

Health:
1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
5. Make time to practice meditation, yoga, and prayer.
6. Play more games.
7. Read more books than you did in 2008.
8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
9. Sleep for 7 hours.
10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day. And while you walk, smile.
Personality:
11. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
13. Don't over do. Keep your limits.
14. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
16. Dream more while you are awake.
17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
18. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with His/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn.
Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away
like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and laugh more.
24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
Society:
25. Call your family often.
26. Each day give something good to others.
27. Forgive everyone for everything.
28. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6
29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
30. What other people think of you is none of your business.
31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
Life:
32. Do the right thing!
33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
34. GOD heals everything.
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
37. The best is yet to come.
38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.
39. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.
Last but not the least:
40. Share this to everyone you care about...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHIE

I should have done this right after her birthday (February 14) but since i was busy and my computer was under repair so it's almost a week late.

Happy Happy Birthday Chie! Wish you more valentine birthdays to come, good friend and colleague, good health for you and your loveones and a more loving relationship with agom Rab.

HONEST SCRAP AWARD

I got this award from Niko a month ago. Thanks Dear! I'll try to do all your tags now.

Honest Scrap Award Rules:

When accepting this auspicious award, you must write a post bragging about it, including the name of the misguided soul who thinks you deserve such acclaim, and link back to said person so everyone knows he or she is real.

Choose a minimum of 7 blogs that you find brilliant in content or design. Or improvise by including bloggers who have no idea who you are because you don’t have 7 friends. Show the 7 random victims’ names and links and leave a harassing comment informing them that they were prized with “Honest Weblog.” Well, there’s no prize, but they can keep the nifty icon. List at least ten honest things about yourself. Then, pass it on!

Now, here's the list of 10 things about me!

1. I am stubborn - i stand on what i believe is right even if the whole world is against me.
2. I am a perfectionist - my siblings used to tell me that... they said as if i don't have flaws.
   
3. I hate a coquette - i've got no right to condemn.... so the worst thing i can do is to hate them.
4. I hold grudges - forgiveness is the toughest challenge for me. Whoever had caused so much pain on me, i wish them suffer more than i did before i forgive them.

5. I am contented for whatever i have but strive to achieve what others have in my own little way.
6. I am childish - once i was told to act on my age...who cares...i simply love being me.
7. I am a conversationalist - i talk a lot...exchanging ideas and opinions about anything that goes around.
8. I tend to be cruel and violent whenever i'm angry - i throw things around and hurt anyone physically.
9. I am dependable - whoo! the greatest compliment i got from fellow campus leaders during college days.
10. I am easy going - naturally friendly
    

I want to pass this wonderful award to 7 wonderful blogmates: Jeck, Donna, Gracia, Ate Arlene, Rachel, Jeanette, Enjhae

KEN

Since i don't have much thing to do...why not share something about my nephew.

He is Ken. He just turned 2 last Sep. 2008. Last October my bro and ken moved to my mom because my sis in law went to Manila for work. So then he become the baby in the family. My mom loved him so much that if possible she don't want him to leave the house anymore.

Everytime i call them i would always try to speak to him. At first he just listened to my voice and didn't say anthing. But then lately he started to talk to me. He ask me to buy him an airplane, a car, a truck loader and many other things. He also tell me stories like they went to the market with my mom and he saw many cars.

Then when i tell him "Bbye", he will reply "Bbye Tita, i love u, ingat:)

IDLE

Valentines had passed and yet i didn't managed to post anything. My computer in the office still under repair... i don't know when it will be fixed thoroughly. Last week the IT told me that he will change the memory card, which he did.. but still same problem occured. So yesterday he told me again that maybe he needs to change the mother board...that means i have more weeks to wait before i can start doing my scrapbook and updating my blog again....and finished my reports.

REALITIES OF BEING AN OFW

I received this from email.....and i want to share this to everyone also esp. for all OFW's out there...

Hindi mayaman ang OFW - We have this notion na 'pag OFW o nasa abroad ay mayaman na. Hindi totoo yun. A regular OFW might earn from P50K-P300K per month depende sa lokasyon. Yung mga taga-Saudi or US siguro ay mas malaki ang sweldo, but to say that they're rich is a fallacy (amen!).

Malaki ang pangangailangan kaya karamihan ay nag-a-abroad. Maraming bunganga ang kailangang pakainin kaya umaalis ang mga pipol sa Philippines . Madalas, 3/4 o kalahati ng sweldo ay napupunta sa tuition ng anak at gastusin ng pamilya.

Mahirap maging OFW – Kailangan magtipid hangga't kaya. Oo, masarap ang pagkain sa abroad pero madalas na paksiw o adobo at itlog lang tinitira para makaipon. Pagdating ng kinsenas o katapusan, ang unang tinitingnan eh ang conversion ng peso sa dollar o rial o euro. Mas okay na magtiis sa konti kaysa gutumin ang pamilya. Kapag umuuwi, kailangan may baon kahit konti kasi maraming kamag-anak ang sumusundo sa airport o naghihintay sa probinsya. Alam mo naman 'pag Pinoy, yung tsismis na OFW ka eh surely attracts a lot of kin.

Kapag hindi mo nabigyan ng pasalubong eh magtatampo na yun at sisiraan ka na. Well, hindi naman lahat pero I'm sure sa mga OFW dito eh may mga pangyayaring ganun. Magtatrabaho ka sa bansang iba ang tingin sa mga Pinoy. Malamang marami ang naka-experience ng gulang o discrimination to their various workplaces. Sige lang, tiis lang, iniiyak na lang kasi kawawa naman pamilya 'pag umuwi.

Besides, wala ka naman talagang maasahang trabaho sa Philippines ngayon. Mahal ang bigas, ang gatas, ang sardinas, ang upa sa apartment. Tiis lang kahit maraming kupal sa trabaho, kahit may sakit at walang nag-aalaga, kahit hindi masarap ang tsibog, kahit pangit ang working conditions, kahit delikado, kahit mahirap. Kapag nakapadala ka na, okay na, tawag lang, "hello! kumusta na kayo?".

Hindi bato ang OFW - Tao rin ang OFW, hindi money o cash machine. Napapagod rin, nalulungkot (madalas), nagkakasakit, nag-iisip at nagugutom. Kailangan din ang suporta, kundi man physically, emotionally o spiritually man lang.

Tumatanda rin ang OFW - Sa mga nakausap at nakita ko, marami ang panot at kalbo na. Most of them have signs and symptoms of hypertension, coronary artery disease and arthritis. Yet, they continue to work thinking about the family they left behind. Marami ang nasa abroad, 20-30 years na, pero wala pa ring ipon. Kahit anong pakahirap, sablay pa rin. Masakit pa kung olats rin ang sinusuportahang pamilya – ang anak adik o nabuntis; ang asawa may kabit. Naalala ko tuloy ang sikat na kanta dati, "NAPAKASAKIT KUYA EDDIE!"

Bayani ang OFW – Totoo yun! Ngayon ko lang na na-realize na bayani ang OFW sa maraming bagay. Hindi bayani na tulad ni Nora Aunor o Flor Contemplacion. Bayani in the truest sense of the word. Hindi katulad ni Rizal o Bonifacio. Mas higit pa dun, mas maraming giyera at gulo ang pinapasok ng OFW para lang mabuhay. Mas maraming pulitika ang kailangang suungin para lang tumagal sa trabaho lalo na't kupal ang mga kasama sa trabaho. Mas mahaba ang pasensya kaysa sa mga ordinaryong kongresista o senador sa Philippines dahil sa takot na mawalan ng sweldo.

Matindi ang OFW – Matindi ang pinoy. Matindi pa sa daga, o cockroaches which survived the cataclysmic evolution. Maraming sakripisyo pero walang makitang tangible solutions or consequences.

Malas ng OFW, swerte ng pulitiko – Hindi umuupo ang OFW para magbigay ng autograph o interbyuhin ng media (unless nakidnap!). Madalas nasa sidelines lang ang OFW. Kapag umaalis, malungkot and on the verge of tears. Kapag dumadating, swerte 'pag may sundo( madalas meron). Kapag naubos na ang ipon, wala ng kamag-anak.

Sana sikat ang OFW para may boses sa Kamara. Ang swerte ng mga politiko nakaupo sila at ginagastusan ng pera ng Filipino. Hindi nga sila naiinitan o napapaso ng langis, o napagagalitan ng amo, o kumakain ng paksiw para makatipid, o nakatira sa compound with conditions less than favorable, o nakikisama sa ibang lahi para mabuhay. Ang swerte, sobrang swerte nila.

Matatag ang OFW – Matatag ang OFW, mas matatag pa sa sundalo o kung ano pang grupo na alam nyo. Magaling sa reverse psychology, negotiations at counter-attacks. Tatagal ba ang OFW? Tatagal pa kasi hindi pa natin alam kailan magbabago ang Philippines , kailan nga kaya? o may tsansa pa ba?

Masarap isipin na kasama mo ang pamilya mo araw-araw. Nakikita mo mga anak mong lumalaki at naaalagaan ng maayos. Masarap kumain ng sitaw, ng bagoong, lechon, inihaw na isda, taba ng talangka. Masarap manood ng pelikulang Pinoy, luma man o bago. Iba pa rin ang pakiramdam kung kilala mo ang kapitbahay mo. Iba pa rin sa Philippines, iba pa rin kapag Pinoy ang kasama mo (except 'pag kupal at utak-talangka) , iba pa rin 'pag nagkukwento ka at naiintindihan ng iba ang sinasabi mo.. Iba pa rin ang tunog ng "mahal kita!", "day, ginahigugma tika." "Mingaw na ko nimo ba, kalagot!", " Inday, diin ka na subong haw? ganahan guid ko simo ba". Iba pa rin talaga.

Sige lang, tiis lang, saan ba't darating din ang pag-asa.