4 D 4TH TIME

It's my 4th time to transfer accommodation since i came here in Dubai and all those transfers gave me a real headache.

First, Financial – Just imagine weeks before your pay day you have already accounted what you’ll gonna receive at the end of the month like rent, food, light & water, transportation, remittance etc etc etc. Then suddenly, either you are requested to leave your room or you just like to leave coz as if your world is getting smaller if you stay more. So even if you’re not prepared financially to shift to another place you will force to do so… then what happens next; NO REMMITTANCES, NO ALLOWANCE but a new place to live.

Second, Body Pain – Taking all the burdens of carrying and transferring your things from small to big one like cabinets. You will end up applying a pain reliever on some parts of your body or taking a medicine before going to sleep.

Third, Adjustment – You’ve got to deal with your new landlords, new room mates, new rules and regulations etc etc etc.

Hmmmm life………………

This time… we transferred to a better place (that’s for sure! Hehehe! Ultimate dream nmin un ni Chie noh!) It’s a bit expensive ….pero ok lang…

HOW DID SHE KNOW?

One of my school mate send me this testimonial to my friendster account. And you know what... i was just amazed how did she know what was bothering me this time.

Among the paragraph, i like the 3rd.

HOW ARE YOU SHENG?

Physically

Slim is beauty! I don't think so....

I'm tryin' to gain some weight but i don't have appetite to eat esp in the morning.

My hyperacidity will trigger (depending on the food i take) anytime....followed by migraine.

I got body and muscle pains.....wish i got the chance to go home to have an overall body massage.


Emotionally

Hubby

Worried all the time.
Just an hours ago....i received a call from him explaining about the message which was sent to me by mistake. Don't know what's goin' on him now. I could feel that he's no longer honest to me.....


Room mates

We're ok....though sometimes we have misunderstandings..... but that's life....
I thank God I have them espAte Myrna...though sometimes she's listening to same sentiments...

Sis in law

Pride! This is all i have!!!
Besides I have not started all this conflicts that we have. I have suffered so much in all the things that she did to me....so i don't have any plan to bow down my head on her.

I don't care about the poeple who says that i have so much pride in me. Who they are to question me that or to tell me that? They were not the one who experienced all the pain and heartaches so they don't have the right!!!


Family

I'm so disappointed with my bro...he's getting into my nerve for being so irresponsible and immature!!!!


Financially

Totally broke...

Mentally

I'm learning a lot from all experiences and problems that comes into my life and i gain wisdom from others experiences.. I think I'm a real grown up and matured person now.

TA NGATA DAW

Inano casacit ang mag talam na “bhing pan-o an nasacban nimi so imong pambayad mo sa utang ano daw cong ikaltas na sana ito sa utang mo sa aki ko”………..understandable nman un lalo na kung kinailangan talaga nila ung pera that time…….kaso…

Ta ngata ta caipuhan pang mag boboha:

Nag apod ako one time ta gusto kong ihapot cong ta ngata ta so statement na tinao kaso maestra, instead of Php 30,000.00 (March 2006) ang aduman Php 21, 000.00 sana……. {Ok, tinaw – an ako ning Php 15,000.00 kso aki nia uya ta idagdag co ngani daa sa ibayad ko (so additional utang ko un sa dirham account ko sainya) …so nagpadala ako ning Php 35,000.00, ang sabi Php 30,000.00 sana daa ang binayad ta ang pacahuna padala kaso aki nia so Php 5,000.00.....ok lang ta sabi ko ikaltas na sana duman sa Peso Account ko sa aki nia………..Ngonian since Php 21,000.00 sana ang nag appear sa padala ko ning March galuwas na so Php 15,000.00 baging pinasakob man sana sa pinadala ko…pero ta ngata ta cong dai co pa pinahagad so statement dai pa maisihan na alog palan kaan – halos 7 months ang naka agi dai man lamang ning abeso…yta palan cong dai ko hinagad so statement bigla na sanang naglaho so pinadala ko habang babayadan ko pa man syempre ito sa aki nia…. biyo ang pag laom ko na binayad sa maestra un palan nagastos}………….. biglang naputol so apod ko ta dai daang signal (inda co sana cong dai talagang signal o garipod ugaring)

Kso pigpahapot ko ki Mama ta bacong pareho so statement niming duwa kso maestra – ang talamon pan-o daa so ibang resibo nahubon sa eskwelahan.

Another chat….sabi ko hagadon so Cell # kaso maestra ta gusto kong macahulon manugod sa utang…. 1. Ang sabi dai daang cellphone ta nawala…..okJ 2. After 2 weeks or 3 weekd cguro sabi ko baad igua ng Cellphone (ta mala nganing imposible man na dai makabakal diretso samantalang maimoon man ito so maestra)…sabi ko pakihagad na sana ….dai pa man daa ning cellphone…ok dai kong dai!….then sabi ko hagadon maski number kso kailibahan sa halong ta nganing maapodan ko….dai man daang mga cellphone…imposible!!!!!!

Tapos so manugod sa Php 7,000.00 (June 2006) kada online matalam caipohang caipohan na daa kso maestra so imo....so ako man maski na ngani kapos talaga nagpadala…..ngonyan pagkaremanese nagastos so imo ta ang pacahuna otro padala kso aki nia…(ano an lambang imo na gaabot sa account nia withdraw sna ning withdraw dai man lamang isihon kong padala baga ito kso aki nia or padala ko) Imposible man na dai ninda isi na nagpadala ako ning imo ta nagtext ako and nag offline message…. tapos pina apudan ko pa ki pangit na talman na nag padala ako ning pambayad…and besides ga chat man sinda pirmi kso aki nia uya…dami man lamang baga ihapot kong para sainda ito o bako….

Tapos ngonyan ta bakong clarado sako ta alog kaito so statement pinapuntahan ko ki Mama so maestra ta haputon ta dai sa statement so ibang binayad ko and idiretso na sna so pinadala kong pambayad…Ang sabi kso Maestra…iyo man sana talaga ito ang itinao sainyang imo and dai siyang nahubon na resibo sa eskwelahan….so ang luwas ga boloboha baga…grrrrrrrrr!!!!!

Ang pambayad ko diresto sainda ta mala nganing sinda ang nakisuyo duman sa maestra na pasobre – on ako ning imo. Syempre ta naca – ayon ako… gatiwala ako na mad ayad...kso iyo na ngani ini...gabasol ugod ako ta naperwisyo ko na sinda sa kakasingil kso maestra.... tpos alog pa kaan ang nagyari (sabi pa ngani napasupog daa sinda – ta mapasupog man baco man sinda ang iguang utang and besides bigabayadan man baga ..un nga lang delay minsan ta dai man talagang ikabayad)...mayad pa ugod na ki Mama ko pina asikaso so pag bayad...sigurado makaabot sa maestra so imo...

Then y gabasol ako ta pinaabot ning kainawat....ta kung igua daw ning imo mag abot daw ning alog kaan kaawat .....and pilang beses ipariwanag na 3 bulan akong daing trabaho....8 times nag exit sa iran and ang 6 duman gastos ko (Php 20,000.00 + every exit) kaya inabot ning alog kaan kaawat...mahirap bang intindihin un!!!!!!

MY UPPER AND LOWER

It's been a while...

I have so much thing to write and express 'bout my present situation esp the status of my heart but i don't find the time to sit and strike my keyboard base on what is the content of my mind and heart.

I'm not ok as ......................................

WHY ME LORD

...came across to this post from ASMSI forum...

THE CROSS

The young man was at the end of his rope .Seeing no way out,he dropped to his knees in prayer ."Lord, I can`t go on," I have too heavy a cross to bear" The Lord replied, " My son,if you can`t bear its weight,just place your cross inside this room.Then open that other door and pick out any cross you wish."The man filled with relief. "Thank u Lord", he sighed,and he did as he was told. Upon entering the other door,he saw many crosses,some so large the tops were not visible.Then he spotted a tiny cross leaning against a far wall. " I`d like that one Lord," he whispered. And then the Lord replied, My son ,that is the cross you just brought in."

* When life`s problems seems overwhelming.it helps to look around,and see what other people are coping with. You may consider your self far more fortunate than u imagine.

I may not be carrying that much heavy cross with me now and i'm not even asking God why i am experiencing such problems right now coz i know there's a reason for all of this.....and He knows everything which our human mind can't fully understand...

All i wish now is to have a piece of mind...

A WORK IN PROGRESS

As I was reading the Gospel last night I come to weigh up my very own self. Being a member of CFC SFC – Dubai I have attended worships, prayer meetings and talks which draws me closer to Him. But in spite of this…still something is wrong with me. And I even hate myself for being like this. I wanted to get rid of this strange feeling but I don’t know how?

Oh Lord, I know this is part of your test…and am sure u constantly watches my responses to people, problems, success, conflict, illness, disappointment, and even my actions to simple matters….And every incident that I am encountering now has significance for my character development. I wanted and I tried to change oh God but I think it will take time. So please help me forget all the hurts and pains and let me love the people around me.

Oh Lord, I am lifting my very own self to you, change my heart oh God.