Tuesday, July 17, 2007


Posted in Angel 24/7

I can't pin down the exact details...but I'm sure there's a legend, a fable, or a myth that ends this way: the villain is defeated once the townspeople turn their backs and choose to forget him or her.
Seems to be the lesson that the universe is hammering onto me. It took me a good long time to realize that certain things and people only have as much power over me as I let them have.
Regardless of whether the feelings are anger, fear, resentment, or loneliness...mere acknowledgment permits them to take hold of me and control me. Again, I realized that I am as responsible for my personal misery as I am for my own happiness.
So, this morning I woke up and chose to embrace life.
This new found conviction spawned from reading past blog entries in my old multiply account. The circumstances in my life then were pretty much the same as the ones I have now, albeit in lighter shades. But somehow I seemed to have dealt with them in a calmer and more wisdom-steeped manner.
Rummaging through cupboards and drawers, I reflected on the last two years of my life and concluded that I didn't fare too shabbily after all. True, there were hairpin turns and flat-out stupid decisions I had made, (the most recent of which I truly deserved a roundhouse kick in the arse for), but my overall opinion was that this time around, I stayed long enough to learn from these challenges and trials.
In the past, it was fairly easy for me to say "let go" or "isolate" or "block off completely". It worked of course, and given my pigheadedness, I stood by whatever decision I made with a stiff upper lip. I was an expert at slamming doors shut...which is probably why I always ended up chasing my tail.
However, this time it was very different. It was a humbling experience being trapped in the belly of the whale. I was forced to admit my weaknesses, own up to my shortcomings and come to terms with myself.
After that I evaluated everything my life stood for. Seriously, I examined it inside out and saw that I had a lovely and charming life...all things considered!
Therefore, I resolve to turn my back on undesirable thoughts and negative people and I choose to forget them with conviction!
And I do hope this silly little rhyme inspires you to embrace life too..
"As you travel down life's pathway, may this ever be your goal: Keep your eye upon the doughnut, and not upon the hole!"

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